Sweet merciful crap... I never realized we had this many songs until now. I have to come up with a guitar part for all of them too. Tim wrote all of these... and I think he has a few more still to give me. I also have a few that someday I'll get around to putting up here. oh well...
Lost
when life has me down
speakin but you cant hear
when there is no one around
so I’m silent all the time
Never will I find
that black heart of mine
I don’t show what I feel
there is nothing you can deal
I have grown weak
I have grown dull
never will I know
fighten my myself I am my foe
hurting myself never giving a care
losing myself wishing I was here
Chorus
losing everything about me
these things should not be
I can hear myself
yet no one else
even though I fall
its something I saw
that heart of gold
something that I have sold
maybe I can’t find it
here alone I sit
thinkin that
I know I’m lost
days of darkness pulled me weak
I need find myself I’m at my peak
I cant take it anymore
come on, I need to find myself
and no one else
still searchin around
I need dig into the ground
that’s where I would hide
even though I tried
to find my way back home
the sun shines on some
but never on me
Chorus
~Closing~
when I find myself
it will be someone else
I am gone
the sun will not dawn
lost, lost you cant find me
never will I be free
because I am lost
Crying Out
the cry of night
and no one in sight
now I fall
cuz’ I lost it all
how can this be?
how am I free?
dark in the heart
pulled away and apart
the world is cold
this dream of gold
simply a fairy tale
life I will not fail
Chorus x 2
crying out this pain
you say to me its a game
outta mind and not to miss
away from this
I am not found
maybe sometime in the ground
when im gone
cryin out this song
the darken of the moon
sometime but not soon
yelled at again
these thoughts I think again
sometime i wish
i was six feet under
so I can’t see that thunder
wishin I could be there
somewhere else just not here
I felt this pain
and its not a game
Chorus
my body trembles with these fears
my heart rips and it tares
I can’t hide it
all alone I can’t just sit
mad at myself
maybe at someone else
this game of life is hard
much like a deck a cards
I feel my body go down
fall into the ground
I found this place
nothin more than just a space
maybe I was right
life I knew I would fail
its not a game
Crying out, (Crying out) [~x 2~]
I failed
Trapped Inside
I sit alone
still wondering how I will last
thinkin about how
life goes way to fast
these feelings in my head
holdin me down like ton of lead
tryin to escape I can’t anymore
weak and broken my body is sore
I can’t hold this in
so I am goin let it all out this time
I stand up screamin still lookin for a sign
Chorus x 2
a sign that I have trapped myself
I stay in this state and I hurt someone else
feelings bangin around tryin to get free
these feelings are trapped in me
I think about it every day
it pushes me hard and away
I can’t think with all I feel
no matters how much I deal
I have it all bottled up
maybe I need to drink from golden cup
if I keep it like this I will go up in smoke
maybe someone then will choke
life still goin on
I keep the past till the sun dawns
I know its not alright
this life doesn’t feel like a paradise
running out of time
still lookin for that sign
Chorus x 2
Away
I used to cry at night
thinking I was someone else
and never myself
I felt all this pain
till that day hit me
and I thought it was said to be
that I am outta my mind
where I can’t find
the places that tried to hide
myself in the ocean tide
where am I now
you say to me
well I am someplace where I am free
Chorus x 2
Oh yeah, I am away from it all
I am away were I still
hold my head up high
and stand that tall
Oh, the darkness falls again
the tears fall to the ground
I fall to my knees and I look around
these nights are so cold
wishin it was day
so I could be away
I hate these nights
I wanna be outta sight
I wanna be away from here
lookin at me like I should care
I am gone
you say to me
I am someplace where I am free
Chorus x 2
Where Am I?
when I see myself
I just turn around
and I am by myself
I am no one
no one around me
no where that I can see
maybe I am blind
or I’m just behind myself
I can’t tell anymore
all I feel is nothin
I just wanna free myself from bein this sore
Chorus x2
where am I now?
I cant see from myself
why should I even care?
I don’t give a rip about myself
who are you tell me
what I need for myself
some people say to me
that life is simple
life is harder than that to me
no body knows
where I come from
sometimes I feel so dumb
cuz’ no one understands
maybe its time I stand up for myself
who knows me anyway?
I cant tell anymore
maybe I will find myself someday
Chorus x 2
I’ve Tried
all these times I tried
all these rejections gone cold
I know I have cried
sometimes at night
I see you
and it’s outta sight
maybe if I keep my heart so
then she will see
that I know
Chorus x 2
I love you
and I hope that’s something you see
I want you
and that’s something I gotta have
I need you
and that’s no lie
all these times I looked at you
all these times you’ve turned around
I know there is nothin I can do
I tried so hard
to keep my heart at bay
that hasn’t gotten me very far
maybe its time to go
there’s so much more left
yet I know
Chorus x 2
Tired
I am burden to my friend
and that’s gotta end
there’s nothin else for me
I just wanna be free
hidden in a corner
tryin to be a loner
Someone came up from behind
and she tells me I need to rewind
she held me close and tight
she tells me everything will be alright
she leaves and I am alone
scared her off from all the pain I have shown
Chorus
I am just tired of this town
just tired of this crowd
just tired of it all
just tired of standing way too tall
later that night I am sittin in the car
she runs up from very far
she leans in the window
her voice with a crescendo
askin me what is wrong
tellin me I should be strong
That guy over there
said that I should care
he said “that God loves you”
and I bowed my head down and I turned a little blue
tears fell from my eye
thinkin how I should try
chorus
now I look to the cross
when I feel a little lost
and God tells me
that all that pain will be free
cuz’ when you feel that way
you need to make a change that very day
messing around
will always keep you down
till you look up to the sky
so very high
Pre Closing
now I am alright and
Closing Chorus
I am
no longer tired of this town
no longer tired of this crowd
no longer tired of it all
no longer tired of standing way too tall
Don’t Know Why
I’ve gotten so mad
that makes me so sad
there is nothing to do
don’t know why
I don’t wanna be around you
It’s been a long day
and I can’t get away
so I sit here
don’t know why
I should even care
all this pain
still I play it like a game
Chorus
and I
drop to my knees
all this just for you
and you just don’t see
that all I can do
is try my hardest, but
I will never understand you!
and all this time
wasted all for you
and you just don’t care
I am the one to blame
why should I even dare?
all these times I’ve tried
don’t know why
my thoughts were filled with pride
I just can’t stop
I just wanna pop
sometimes I can’t deal
I just can’t feel
what I have done
don’t know why
this life isn’t any fun
Chorus
You Don’t Know Me
you wanna see what I see?
look into my eyes,
and see what I see
in you.
step into my shoes,
walk the way I walk,
and feel what it’s like
to be me.
don’t ever judge me,
in less you know me,
but you will never know
me!
It doesn’t matter what you think,
you just don’t take the time,
its not worth being
around you!
Chorus
you will never see
what you mean to me
you will never know
in less your truthful to show
but you never take the time
to know how I shine
you don’t know me
so don’t even try!
you say to me you are my friend,
I know other wise,
I know what I see
in you.
nobody knows me,
on one understands,
what its like
to be me.
I donno what it is,
I just can’t explain it,
but I know I don’t wanna be
around you!
Chorus
God Knows
when I’m feeling happy
but it’s just one of those days
where you cant go wrong
and you might be weak yet still strong
this cross I wear around my neck
shows it all
that I am still standing tall
all becuz’ of God
I’m feeling fine
to let my heart shine
without God I wouldn’t be here
you look at me and I look at you
there is noting else to do
but look to the cross
where he died for you
Chorus x2
God is more powerful than you can see
He is in all of us even you and me
God loves you but you might not care
it’s your own pride stopping ya
and I am still standing here
believing something that saved me
God is someone who I can see
Oh, heavenly farther
with all my sin you shouldn’t bother
but you still love me
I pray that one day
that everyone will be that way
where they all love you
where we all praise your name
and not be a shame
life is so much simple
with you by my side
where my heart is bound and tide
by your love
and that is something I need
some people are filled with greed
only wanting love and never giving love
well God I will say it right here
that I will give all my love
Chorus x2
Not What I Seemed
The only thing I can do
Is pray for you
And that's the only thing I can do
Even if I try I know
I can never be there when you cry
Or hold you when you are sad
And that makes me mad
I can’t help it its just me
What else is to be?
I worry all the time
And maybe it’s a sign
I don’t know anymore
Like you I am broken and tore
Yet I know that I am here for you
And I am trying my hardest with all I can do
To make u happy
And let’s admit I am doing crappy
I bow my head in shame
As you call my name
That I have failed to be there
Sometimes I didn't care
Maybe I am not all as I am cut up to be.
What else is wrong with me?
I am not the one.
And let that you hit like a ton...
All there is left is to say I’m sorry.
You tell me I am not to blame
and I know your lying don’t be a shame
don’t hold back
cut me no slack
I don’t need it
I am already alone where I sit
lost and beaten
I am just weaken
from this
something I hold back and don’t miss
I am not there
only here
but where ever I am
I will be watching you like I am
even though I have hurt you
there is nothing I can do
to make you think other wise
think once or twice
I shouldn’t be here
and you shouldn’t care
all I have left is to say is I am sorry
Hold Me
Chorus
Hold me closer
try not to smother
be with me lord
I need your love,
that’s everlasting
and take me under your arm
and hold me closer
lift me beyond this world
save me from myself and more
and bring me to know you more
find what’s in my heart
convict me and see what’s inside
make me relize who is my true friend
and walk in front of me
and I will follow
bring my closer to you
Chorus
I know you died on the cross for me
still pride is holding me back
show me what you have to offer
and use me
like a tool
to save someone
who is just like me
Chorus
I Can’t Handle This
All this stuff, keeps coming to me
I try to get away
but its holding me
with all this pain
pulling me back (echo)
with all this guilt
I can’t handle this,
I’m on my edge
and I’m goin to fall
fall to ground
I cant handle this (handle this)
pushing me down
pushing me down
chorus
I’m just sick of this
I’m taking my heart back
were it belongs
The world spins without you
your not the only one
for me
I need to move on
and just be me
but its keeps
pulling me back
(pulling me back)
I know its love
my heart crushed
my soul burned
I cant handle this
but maybe you could
every time I see you
it keeps getting harder
it keeps pushin me down
every time I look up
people around me still standing tall
I feel weak
I feel sick
heart broken its a disease
that’s eating me
and pushing me down
chorus
Closing
I cant handle this
I cant handle this anymore
love keeps pushing me down
pushing me down farther and farther
Po’ed Metal Song
love hurts
when your on the other end of it
broken hearted, broken minds
chop my heart to pieces
I don’t give a rip!
this is just pissing me off
no ones around
you won’t invite me
and I’m sick of it
all this pain,
playing my heart like a game
stealing the only thing I have left
And you don’t care
listen to me when I’m talking to you
don’t turn away
cuz’ that’s all you ever did
love or hate
you pick your own fate
I don’t care
messing me up
I cant deal
with all this pain
I’m goin to stand up (stand up) x2
and let it all out
I’m goin to stand up (stand up) x2
and let it all out! (let it all out)
of me
you wanna screw me
its just not right
I’m goin mess ya up
bring on
just bring it!
so its like that
I wanna I wanna go away
I wanna I wanna just break
I just wanna go away, from you
I cant stand it anymore
all this pain
is building up
getting pisted I can’t stand it
I’m just goin pop
I cant stop
this anger, pain
all inside of me
I’m goin to stand up (stand up) x2
and let it all out
I’m goin to stand up (stand up) x2
and let it all out! (let it all out)
letting me pull apart myself
and you cant watch
I’m Getting Over You
I hated the way
you treated me
and I’m still hurt
when you don’t talk to me
how am I supposed to be?
when I cant think
or walk
this life I don’t want
only thing from me is a broken heart
you can have her
cuz’ I don’t need the pain
but I know the feelings
will always be the same
cuz’ I’m stayin here
I’m just not moving on
trapped in the past
when I was happy
holding myself down
and pulling you back
where am I supposed go?
when I still need you
[ Yeah, Yeah,
I need to move on,
and put myself together
and quit whining about this
life will go on with out you
but I still ]
I hate the way
you treat me
and I’m still hurt
when you don’t talk to me
how am I supposed to be?
when I cant think
or walk
this life I don’t want
only thing from me is a broken heart
you can have her
cuz’ I don’t need the pain
but I know the feelings
will always be the same
cuz’ I’m stayin here
I’m just not moving on
trapped in the past
when I was happy
holding myself down
and pulling you back
where am I supposed go?
when I still need you
but I don’t want you anymore
I’m getting over you
and I’m still hurtin
cuz’ of you
Downside
its so hard
to see you again
with that guy
and maybe I’m stuck
and I need to move on
trapped inside this hole
you are always hiding from me
we can’t ever talk
it will never be the same
-Chorus-x2
I don’t want this
I don’t need this
I cant have this
It’s too much pain for me
and now you think
that it will be ok
I’m still hurt
with all this pain
but we never talk
so you don’t know
cuz’ you never asked
so I’m telling you
-Chorus- x2
The truth hurts sometimes
I know its time to move on
but it still hurts
and I’m still get jealous
maybe, I shouldn’t care
but, the feelings are still the same
and will always be there
I can’t help that
cuz’ its just me
chorus x2
Still Not Friends
Somebody once told me I need to take a vacation Somebody once told me I need to be free get away from this away from you So I can be finally at rest chorus and you think (think) that I need (i need) nothing from you but you (you) don’t care and I (I) need someone but No one was there when I needed them and No one was there when I was hurt all this pain only from you and I’m still hurt because of you chorus and I think (think) that you need (you need) nothing from me but I don’t care(I) and you (you) need someone closing but, hey its alright you have her you don’t need me and I won’t be there for you so don’t ask becuz you ripped my heart out from me Nothings Changed its ok if you think that I’m no good but I know you hate me and nothing is goin to change cuz everything is the same but guess its a shame since I hate the way how I see you everyday since I showed you the way chorus This isn’t goin to work you won’t take the time to be the friend who you were talkin about you just dont get it I didn’t think you would and now you think that it will be ok but I know your so wrong you wanna be friends but you’ll never take the time I always hear you whine and that’s just fine but I’m getting sick of this and I’m not goin to miss when you fall from the cliffs chorus since I’m gone you don’t have anyone to mess up so drink from that cup and maybe you will die so you’ll never lie to someone like me I’m Leaving I’m packin my bags and I’m loading up so drink from that sour cup and maybe you will see the way you treated me and that’s the reason why I’m leaving from here and flyin high I’m moving across town far away as I can away from this crowd now I am happy because chorus I am / a million miles away from you and you don’t really care so I’m stayin right here cuz I don’t wanna deal with everything I feel when I was with you and thats more than I could do but even so I could never go back to the places were I just sat you’ll be lookin for me and I’m not goin to be there for you since you never there for me talking behind my own back seein what I saw not cutting me slack and I’m not coming back since Chorus Closing- 10-20yrs from now you’ll wont know me but here I will be, singing this song about how you were crap so what do you think about that? Getting Back up I’ve fallen, fallen down, and I gotta get back up so I can be with you and learn your word always trying to be like you I’ll try to walk in your shadow, look in my heart and kill my sorrow go through my mind and kill the sin so I can be free with you chorus your the only thing that I will need to move on in this life with you in my heart and that fire burns for you so help me, and be with me cuz I need you I know I have messed up sinned in this life and I ask forgiveness help me through this life and ill spread your word cleanse my body and wash my sin I’m lookin around but I haven’t been lookin up afraid of this world afraid of myself and more go through me and push me and help me raise that bar chorus Growing Stronger something’s messing with my head and Its trapped me like a cage its the devil holding my leg cant escape trapped inside my own emotions and my head nothing is goin to change I’m not goin to move I’m staying right here right now and I’m goin to fight it till I got no more chorus oh yeah, im breakin free free from this im goin home home to heaven where the angles are sweat and the devil doesn’t tear but its not my time yet but im holdin on holding on to you I’m takin this like a bull from the horns its goin to be tuff and ill be weak yet I will win with him on my side I maybe confused and used up and havin people pushin me and being left behind but I’m growing, growin stronger till I’m home home with him chorus Better than me? Its come clear to me that you think I suck that’s no problem cuz’ your standing right here messing with my head and everything is the same so I thought but I guess I was wrong I see you pass by and you push me outta the way you yell at me screw it I suck anyways chorus I’m raised above this enough of this petty crap can’t we get along? I didn’t think so and I don’t care its on all you this time tryin to make me jealous I scream and laugh at you saying how you are always better so I think you should find some help before I kill you opps did I say that? I didn’t mean too life sucks but I’m in this just like you are so don’t go off you idiot chorus Teenaged Punk chorus I’m feeling blue since I have a clue still I have to chose where I go next and it still hurts when I play this game this life its not a game so don’t even play but don’t give up just keep passing go never end up in jail or land on broad walk what am I singing about? this what happens when your turn into a teenaged punk you take life for granted like a video game living just to entertain chorus life is like box a chocolates Gump was right you never know what is goin to be thrown at you since your a teenaged punk so lets play this game again till your in slump when the phase passes you by yet still messing up your mind then you realized how dumb you were but hey its alright, cuz I’m a loser too yea yea, quit living a lie quit trying to fly your just goin to flunk you teenaged punk so what are you goin to do? cuz I’m a loser too but I’m feelin blue Since I have no clue where I’m goin next Goin No where I’m the only one who cares the same and ponders about the sum I know this will never change cuz I’m askin for some help but I’m by myself where there’s nothing, you can do chorus x2 I’m goin no where since nobody changed I’m goin no where since I am the same and no one knows where I am there’s no where to go and I can’t see where I am or where I’m coming from since I am goin no where and it sounds kinda dumb but you don’t care chorus x2 Slacker I’m a slacker don’t back me up sometimes I lack that patience to get though my day but I’m goin all the way no matter how hard it is I’m goin to try my hardest I don’t care what anyone else says cuz I’m doin my own thing -chorus- yea, yea, I’m a slacker maybe a loser too yea, yea I’m a slacker you can’t tell me what to do yea, yea I’m a slacker I’m too lazy and I’m not doin anything some people say, I’m wasting time but hey, I don’t care what you say It doesn’t matter to me I’m not afraid to admit that I’ll get nothing done and that’s a slacker to some -chorus - yea, yea, I’m a slacker x2 Don’t Wait love is hard but I know what it’s like to not make your move life goes by too fast you never know what is goin to happen and this could be your last chance don’t stall, or waste your time make the effort and try not to whine -chorus - this is for all of you that can’t decide or know what to do don’t take sides cuz’ love is a chance that might not last so ask them to that dance make your move real fast what the worse that can happen? that they will say no doesn’t matter, move on find another, that you can hold true love happens only once don’t let that time go by Grasp it, and ask the question and let the feelings fly chorus Hurt Before I heard someone say I wasn’t myself today It will happen anyway Can't control it alone I will sit afraid to commit I was hurt before and I'm a little sore my heart broken, it was tore when I speak I feel a little weak maybe I’m a freak Yeah, Yeah -chorus- I don’t know what I want and I can’t show that I want to be with you and I can’t decide what to do But I can’t be me and maybe you can see that I’m free but I’m afraid and I’ll delay then you will say that you wont wait around then I’ll hit the ground and I’ll feel down that I wasted time and then I’ll whine then I will never shine -chorus- Looking Around -chorus - I’m not talking I’m not standing I’m sitting here waiting for you Where are you? Where did you go? Where can I find you? cuz’ your not here yea, yea, yea x2 the love of my dreams gone away from me I broke her heart and she ran away I’m a jerk what can I say? -chorus - yea ,yea, yea x2 I wish I could fall in love again but I know that it will never happen Yeah, I’ll never find the one I’m too scared I don’t have a chance -chorus - yea, yea, yea x2 I’ve Felt you’ll never know what its like to get pushed down by your self and you’ll never see what its like to be me and being treated like this when heart is broken you can’t rest or fall asleep people don’t know me they still judge me chorus you’ll never see me around you and you’ll never know anything about me cuz you don’t take the time its always about you always takin away from my broken heart you’ll never know what its like since i’ve felt down every night and day its messed up my walk sometimes I can’t talk you think it’s funny but all I get is pain you’ll never see what’s on the inside cuz your lookin out and judgin me chorus x 2 Love At First Sight I know you won’t show up but, I will wait here, yet you don’t care I’m still waiting for your call, since I did fall I feel used and I’m a little confused I thought I was right, love at first sight now I know I was wrong, and I’m not that strong I don’t know why I want you and I gotta be with you all I needed was you I was wrong about you yet I still wanna be with you I won’t argue, since I don’t know you then why must I say good bye? I wanna get to know you, so I can show you I won’t lie, I’m not that bad of a guy or am I wasting my time?, just to hear you whine I guess it won’t work out, yet I’m left with doubt Stupid my head hurts and your heart broken wasting your time thinking about me I saw you again and the thoughts begin how I was stupid -chorus- I ran away from you and there nothing you can do cept for wait for me but time is running out I’m sorry, yea, yea for thinkin bout you my heart aches your tuff necks something tells me I was wrong and ill remember everything about you our first kiss our last kiss until I said goodbye -chorus- my eyes watered your tears gone thought about you again and the tears begin I was stupid you wont take me back what have I done? I dumped the one I loved yea, yea, yea I was wrong, I was stupid I’m crawling back for you but your not there cuz you fell in love with him chorus I Don’t Know No more questions No more answers cuz I’m running out leading me on to the wrong path waiting for an answer waiting to be told cuz’ -chorus- I don’t know where I am or where to go I just don’t know where are you? or what to do I quit asking I quit thinking Cuz I’m loosing my mind goin to the unknown where no one’s been I’m not moving I’m still waiting for the answer cuz’ -chorus- Option C On a cold and rainy night you know when I’m down all the times I can retrace when you were there to all the jokes we have that make us laugh to all the good times and for the ones yet to come a simple song I wont forget you don’t know how much you mean to me how you’ve changed me simple friends to the end some would say that friends will end but I know I’ll never forget you here’s a list, in case your in doubt you started my walk you kept me from myself you brighten up a cloudy day this might not mean much to others but it does to me and this song is just my thanks you were there Repeat: (2nd time through end with On a cold and rainy night) I Give Up chorus x2 I don’t want you around me anymore and maybe you’ll see that I’m tore sometimes it was hard to believe we were friends and this friendship has come to a end so just go away All these feelings I can’t control all the times you stabbed me in my back what have I done to you? one little fight is all it takes for you to lose it remembering all the times we had but you don’t care and you make me feel like I’m not here chorus x2 Now your acting all hard it’s funny cuz your not I still care for you even though your a jerk your not all that pride is holding you back your not goin to realize oh well it’s your loss chorus x2 why does it have to be like this? I don’t need this... I don’t want this... all this anger building up I’m fed up I’ve tried my hardest and you don’t care so I’m giving up giving up on you so.. chorus x2 Waste of Time welcome to my life where its boring all the time and you listen to me whine I’m a loser so shoot me what a freakin nightmare I live in my best friend cheating on her oh well what can you do? chorus x 2 where your a loser like me all the hott chicks don’t look at me the one in the corner thats me maybe your a loser like me repeat first verse (faster) Welcome to my life the same old rut ill keep my mouth shut the girls? don’t have any the life? don’t got one this really sucks I’m not good looking either who ate all the sheep? Chorus x2 repeat first verse (faster) hey look its your mom time to run away you stupid gullible person come here and make my day this song makes no sense that movie sucked oh well what can you do? chorus x2 repeat first verse (faster) Losers I’m in class no more notes to pass I look around sometimes up and down then I see her face and how bad lunch tasted her beautiful face it makes me wanna cry to bad she is with him its happen again and the thoughts begin Pre chorus (build up for chorus) I like a taken girl I have no chance I’m not goin to try she is outta my league Chorus the facts are true theres nothing to do since I’m a loser and not a chooser since I smells you can’t tell I don’t know take showers and your mom has the power to try and kill me but don’t you see? walking with my shoes untied I have no pride since I’m in a band try to be a fan watch us play and hear me say your mom a couple of times you just cant whine cuz your stuck here and shes standing there with her pretty hair pre chorus chorus Closing I’m a loser you may not believe so you can leave sorry my friend this is the end Your Mom I heard something really lame sometimes I feel I lost my brain this I hate this song something seems so wrong I made this up from a sliver cup and your mom is named tom what can you do? when you feel so blue all these problems with us always happens with trust can’t handle the pressure try not to crush her we all have simple lives so live a sweet life I heard someone say it wasn’t their day quit throwing a fit shut up and sit don’t mess with me I’ll set you free forget about yesterday so get outta my way I try not to tease but I try to please chorus then you’ll see everything about me try to rewind that tape of mine and be the one you are to some don’t change yourself for someone else don’t get wiped don’t get tripped chorus