Sweet merciful crap... I never realized we had this many songs until now. I have to come up with a guitar part for all of them too. Tim wrote all of these... and I think he has a few more still to give me. I also have a few that someday I'll get around to putting up here. oh well...

Lost

when life has me down

speakin but you cant hear

when there is no one around

so I’m silent all the time

Never will I find

that black heart of mine

I don’t show what I feel

there is nothing you can deal

I have grown weak

I have grown dull

never will I know

fighten my myself I am my foe

hurting myself never giving a care

losing myself wishing I was here

Chorus

losing everything about me

these things should not be

I can hear myself

yet no one else

even though I fall

its something I saw

that heart of gold

something that I have sold

maybe I can’t find it

here alone I sit

thinkin that

I know I’m lost

days of darkness pulled me weak

I need find myself I’m at my peak

I cant take it anymore

come on, I need to find myself

and no one else

still searchin around

I need dig into the ground

that’s where I would hide

even though I tried

to find my way back home

the sun shines on some

but never on me

Chorus

~Closing~

when I find myself

it will be someone else

I am gone

the sun will not dawn

lost, lost you cant find me

never will I be free

because I am lost

Crying Out

the cry of night

and no one in sight

now I fall

cuz’ I lost it all

how can this be?

how am I free?

dark in the heart

pulled away and apart

the world is cold

this dream of gold

simply a fairy tale

life I will not fail

Chorus x 2

crying out this pain

you say to me its a game

outta mind and not to miss

away from this

I am not found

maybe sometime in the ground

when im gone

cryin out this song

the darken of the moon

sometime but not soon

yelled at again

these thoughts I think again

sometime i wish

i was six feet under

so I can’t see that thunder

wishin I could be there

somewhere else just not here

I felt this pain

and its not a game

Chorus

my body trembles with these fears

my heart rips and it tares

I can’t hide it

all alone I can’t just sit

mad at myself

maybe at someone else

this game of life is hard

much like a deck a cards

I feel my body go down

fall into the ground

I found this place

nothin more than just a space

maybe I was right

life I knew I would fail

its not a game

Crying out, (Crying out) [~x 2~]

I failed

Trapped Inside

I sit alone

still wondering how I will last

thinkin about how

life goes way to fast

these feelings in my head

holdin me down like ton of lead

tryin to escape I can’t anymore

weak and broken my body is sore

I can’t hold this in

so I am goin let it all out this time

I stand up screamin still lookin for a sign

Chorus x 2

a sign that I have trapped myself

I stay in this state and I hurt someone else

feelings bangin around tryin to get free

these feelings are trapped in me

I think about it every day

it pushes me hard and away

I can’t think with all I feel

no matters how much I deal

I have it all bottled up

maybe I need to drink from golden cup

if I keep it like this I will go up in smoke

maybe someone then will choke

life still goin on

I keep the past till the sun dawns

I know its not alright

this life doesn’t feel like a paradise

running out of time

still lookin for that sign

Chorus x 2

Away

I used to cry at night

thinking I was someone else

and never myself

I felt all this pain

till that day hit me

and I thought it was said to be

that I am outta my mind

where I can’t find

the places that tried to hide

myself in the ocean tide

where am I now

you say to me

well I am someplace where I am free

Chorus x 2

Oh yeah, I am away from it all

I am away were I still

hold my head up high

and stand that tall

Oh, the darkness falls again

the tears fall to the ground

I fall to my knees and I look around

these nights are so cold

wishin it was day

so I could be away

I hate these nights

I wanna be outta sight

I wanna be away from here

lookin at me like I should care

I am gone

you say to me

I am someplace where I am free

Chorus x 2

Where Am I?

when I see myself

I just turn around

and I am by myself

I am no one

no one around me

no where that I can see

maybe I am blind

or I’m just behind myself

I can’t tell anymore

all I feel is nothin

I just wanna free myself from bein this sore

Chorus x2

where am I now?

I cant see from myself

why should I even care?

I don’t give a rip about myself

who are you tell me

what I need for myself

some people say to me

that life is simple

life is harder than that to me

no body knows

where I come from

sometimes I feel so dumb

cuz’ no one understands

maybe its time I stand up for myself

who knows me anyway?

I cant tell anymore

maybe I will find myself someday

Chorus x 2

I’ve Tried

all these times I tried

all these rejections gone cold

I know I have cried

sometimes at night

I see you

and it’s outta sight

maybe if I keep my heart so

then she will see

that I know

Chorus x 2

I love you

and I hope that’s something you see

I want you

and that’s something I gotta have

I need you

and that’s no lie

all these times I looked at you

all these times you’ve turned around

I know there is nothin I can do

I tried so hard

to keep my heart at bay

that hasn’t gotten me very far

maybe its time to go

there’s so much more left

yet I know

Chorus x 2

Tired

I am burden to my friend

and that’s gotta end

there’s nothin else for me

I just wanna be free

hidden in a corner

tryin to be a loner

Someone came up from behind

and she tells me I need to rewind

she held me close and tight

she tells me everything will be alright

she leaves and I am alone

scared her off from all the pain I have shown

Chorus

I am just tired of this town

just tired of this crowd

just tired of it all

just tired of standing way too tall

later that night I am sittin in the car

she runs up from very far

she leans in the window

her voice with a crescendo

askin me what is wrong

tellin me I should be strong

That guy over there

said that I should care

he said “that God loves you”

and I bowed my head down and I turned a little blue

tears fell from my eye

thinkin how I should try

chorus

now I look to the cross

when I feel a little lost

and God tells me

that all that pain will be free

cuz’ when you feel that way

you need to make a change that very day

messing around

will always keep you down

till you look up to the sky

so very high

Pre Closing

now I am alright and

Closing Chorus

I am

no longer tired of this town

no longer tired of this crowd

no longer tired of it all

no longer tired of standing way too tall

Don’t Know Why

I’ve gotten so mad

that makes me so sad

there is nothing to do

don’t know why

I don’t wanna be around you

It’s been a long day

and I can’t get away

so I sit here

don’t know why

I should even care

all this pain

still I play it like a game

Chorus

and I

drop to my knees

all this just for you

and you just don’t see

that all I can do

is try my hardest, but

I will never understand you!

and all this time

wasted all for you

and you just don’t care

I am the one to blame

why should I even dare?

all these times I’ve tried

don’t know why

my thoughts were filled with pride

I just can’t stop

I just wanna pop

sometimes I can’t deal

I just can’t feel

what I have done

don’t know why

this life isn’t any fun

Chorus

You Don’t Know Me

you wanna see what I see?

look into my eyes,

and see what I see

in you.

step into my shoes,

walk the way I walk,

and feel what it’s like

to be me.

don’t ever judge me,

in less you know me,

but you will never know

me!

It doesn’t matter what you think,

you just don’t take the time,

its not worth being

around you!

Chorus

you will never see

what you mean to me

you will never know

in less your truthful to show

but you never take the time

to know how I shine

you don’t know me

so don’t even try!

you say to me you are my friend,

I know other wise,

I know what I see

in you.

nobody knows me,

on one understands,

what its like

to be me.

I donno what it is,

I just can’t explain it,

but I know I don’t wanna be

around you!

Chorus

God Knows

when I’m feeling happy

but it’s just one of those days

where you cant go wrong

and you might be weak yet still strong

this cross I wear around my neck

shows it all

that I am still standing tall

all becuz’ of God

I’m feeling fine

to let my heart shine

without God I wouldn’t be here

you look at me and I look at you

there is noting else to do

but look to the cross

where he died for you

Chorus x2

God is more powerful than you can see

He is in all of us even you and me

God loves you but you might not care

it’s your own pride stopping ya

and I am still standing here

believing something that saved me

God is someone who I can see

Oh, heavenly farther

with all my sin you shouldn’t bother

but you still love me

I pray that one day

that everyone will be that way

where they all love you

where we all praise your name

and not be a shame

life is so much simple

with you by my side

where my heart is bound and tide

by your love

and that is something I need

some people are filled with greed

only wanting love and never giving love

well God I will say it right here

that I will give all my love

Chorus x2

Not What I Seemed

The only thing I can do

Is pray for you

And that's the only thing I can do

Even if I try I know

I can never be there when you cry

Or hold you when you are sad

And that makes me mad

I can’t help it its just me

What else is to be?

I worry all the time

And maybe it’s a sign

I don’t know anymore

Like you I am broken and tore

Yet I know that I am here for you

And I am trying my hardest with all I can do

To make u happy

And let’s admit I am doing crappy

I bow my head in shame

As you call my name

That I have failed to be there

Sometimes I didn't care

Maybe I am not all as I am cut up to be.

What else is wrong with me?

I am not the one.

And let that you hit like a ton...

All there is left is to say I’m sorry.

You tell me I am not to blame

and I know your lying don’t be a shame

don’t hold back

cut me no slack

I don’t need it

I am already alone where I sit

lost and beaten

I am just weaken

from this

something I hold back and don’t miss

I am not there

only here

but where ever I am

I will be watching you like I am

even though I have hurt you

there is nothing I can do

to make you think other wise

think once or twice

I shouldn’t be here

and you shouldn’t care

all I have left is to say is I am sorry

Hold Me

Chorus

Hold me closer

try not to smother

be with me lord

I need your love,

that’s everlasting

and take me under your arm

and hold me closer

lift me beyond this world

save me from myself and more

and bring me to know you more

find what’s in my heart

convict me and see what’s inside

make me relize who is my true friend

and walk in front of me

and I will follow

bring my closer to you

Chorus

I know you died on the cross for me

still pride is holding me back

show me what you have to offer

and use me

like a tool

to save someone

who is just like me

Chorus

I Can’t Handle This

All this stuff, keeps coming to me

I try to get away

but its holding me

with all this pain

pulling me back (echo)

with all this guilt

I can’t handle this,

I’m on my edge

and I’m goin to fall

fall to ground

I cant handle this (handle this)

pushing me down

pushing me down

chorus

I’m just sick of this

I’m taking my heart back

were it belongs

The world spins without you

your not the only one

for me

I need to move on

and just be me

but its keeps

pulling me back

(pulling me back)

I know its love

my heart crushed

my soul burned

I cant handle this

but maybe you could

every time I see you

it keeps getting harder

it keeps pushin me down

every time I look up

people around me still standing tall

I feel weak

I feel sick

heart broken its a disease

that’s eating me

and pushing me down

chorus

Closing

I cant handle this

I cant handle this anymore

love keeps pushing me down

pushing me down farther and farther

Po’ed Metal Song

love hurts

when your on the other end of it

broken hearted, broken minds

chop my heart to pieces

I don’t give a rip!

this is just pissing me off

no ones around

you won’t invite me

and I’m sick of it

all this pain,

playing my heart like a game

stealing the only thing I have left

And you don’t care

listen to me when I’m talking to you

don’t turn away

cuz’ that’s all you ever did

love or hate

you pick your own fate

I don’t care

messing me up

I cant deal

with all this pain

I’m goin to stand up (stand up) x2

and let it all out

I’m goin to stand up (stand up) x2

and let it all out! (let it all out)

of me

you wanna screw me

its just not right

I’m goin mess ya up

bring on

just bring it!

so its like that

I wanna I wanna go away

I wanna I wanna just break

I just wanna go away, from you

I cant stand it anymore

all this pain

is building up

getting pisted I can’t stand it

I’m just goin pop

I cant stop

this anger, pain

all inside of me

I’m goin to stand up (stand up) x2

and let it all out

I’m goin to stand up (stand up) x2

and let it all out! (let it all out)

letting me pull apart myself

and you cant watch

I’m Getting Over You

I hated the way

you treated me

and I’m still hurt

when you don’t talk to me

how am I supposed to be?

when I cant think

or walk

this life I don’t want

only thing from me is a broken heart

you can have her

cuz’ I don’t need the pain

but I know the feelings

will always be the same

cuz’ I’m stayin here

I’m just not moving on

trapped in the past

when I was happy

holding myself down

and pulling you back

where am I supposed go?

when I still need you

[ Yeah, Yeah,

I need to move on,

and put myself together

and quit whining about this

life will go on with out you

but I still ]

I hate the way

you treat me

and I’m still hurt

when you don’t talk to me

how am I supposed to be?

when I cant think

or walk

this life I don’t want

only thing from me is a broken heart

you can have her

cuz’ I don’t need the pain

but I know the feelings

will always be the same

cuz’ I’m stayin here

I’m just not moving on

trapped in the past

when I was happy

holding myself down

and pulling you back

where am I supposed go?

when I still need you

but I don’t want you anymore

I’m getting over you

and I’m still hurtin

cuz’ of you

Downside

its so hard

to see you again

with that guy

and maybe I’m stuck

and I need to move on

trapped inside this hole

you are always hiding from me

we can’t ever talk

it will never be the same

-Chorus-x2

I don’t want this

I don’t need this

I cant have this

It’s too much pain for me

and now you think

that it will be ok

I’m still hurt

with all this pain

but we never talk

so you don’t know

cuz’ you never asked

so I’m telling you

-Chorus- x2

The truth hurts sometimes

I know its time to move on

but it still hurts

and I’m still get jealous

maybe, I shouldn’t care

but, the feelings are still the same

and will always be there

I can’t help that

cuz’ its just me

chorus x2

Still Not Friends

Somebody once told me I need to take a vacation Somebody once told me I need to be free get away from this away from you So I can be finally at rest chorus and you think (think) that I need (i need) nothing from you but you (you) don’t care and I (I) need someone but No one was there when I needed them and No one was there when I was hurt all this pain only from you and I’m still hurt because of you chorus and I think (think) that you need (you need) nothing from me but I don’t care(I) and you (you) need someone closing but, hey its alright you have her you don’t need me and I won’t be there for you so don’t ask becuz you ripped my heart out from me Nothings Changed its ok if you think that I’m no good but I know you hate me and nothing is goin to change cuz everything is the same but guess its a shame since I hate the way how I see you everyday since I showed you the way chorus This isn’t goin to work you won’t take the time to be the friend who you were talkin about you just dont get it I didn’t think you would and now you think that it will be ok but I know your so wrong you wanna be friends but you’ll never take the time I always hear you whine and that’s just fine but I’m getting sick of this and I’m not goin to miss when you fall from the cliffs chorus since I’m gone you don’t have anyone to mess up so drink from that cup and maybe you will die so you’ll never lie to someone like me I’m Leaving I’m packin my bags and I’m loading up so drink from that sour cup and maybe you will see the way you treated me and that’s the reason why I’m leaving from here and flyin high I’m moving across town far away as I can away from this crowd now I am happy because chorus I am / a million miles away from you and you don’t really care so I’m stayin right here cuz I don’t wanna deal with everything I feel when I was with you and thats more than I could do but even so I could never go back to the places were I just sat you’ll be lookin for me and I’m not goin to be there for you since you never there for me talking behind my own back seein what I saw not cutting me slack and I’m not coming back since Chorus Closing- 10-20yrs from now you’ll wont know me but here I will be, singing this song about how you were crap so what do you think about that? Getting Back up I’ve fallen, fallen down, and I gotta get back up so I can be with you and learn your word always trying to be like you I’ll try to walk in your shadow, look in my heart and kill my sorrow go through my mind and kill the sin so I can be free with you chorus your the only thing that I will need to move on in this life with you in my heart and that fire burns for you so help me, and be with me cuz I need you I know I have messed up sinned in this life and I ask forgiveness help me through this life and ill spread your word cleanse my body and wash my sin I’m lookin around but I haven’t been lookin up afraid of this world afraid of myself and more go through me and push me and help me raise that bar chorus Growing Stronger something’s messing with my head and Its trapped me like a cage its the devil holding my leg cant escape trapped inside my own emotions and my head nothing is goin to change I’m not goin to move I’m staying right here right now and I’m goin to fight it till I got no more chorus oh yeah, im breakin free free from this im goin home home to heaven where the angles are sweat and the devil doesn’t tear but its not my time yet but im holdin on holding on to you I’m takin this like a bull from the horns its goin to be tuff and ill be weak yet I will win with him on my side I maybe confused and used up and havin people pushin me and being left behind but I’m growing, growin stronger till I’m home home with him chorus Better than me? Its come clear to me that you think I suck that’s no problem cuz’ your standing right here messing with my head and everything is the same so I thought but I guess I was wrong I see you pass by and you push me outta the way you yell at me screw it I suck anyways chorus I’m raised above this enough of this petty crap can’t we get along? I didn’t think so and I don’t care its on all you this time tryin to make me jealous I scream and laugh at you saying how you are always better so I think you should find some help before I kill you opps did I say that? I didn’t mean too life sucks but I’m in this just like you are so don’t go off you idiot chorus Teenaged Punk chorus I’m feeling blue since I have a clue still I have to chose where I go next and it still hurts when I play this game this life its not a game so don’t even play but don’t give up just keep passing go never end up in jail or land on broad walk what am I singing about? this what happens when your turn into a teenaged punk you take life for granted like a video game living just to entertain chorus life is like box a chocolates Gump was right you never know what is goin to be thrown at you since your a teenaged punk so lets play this game again till your in slump when the phase passes you by yet still messing up your mind then you realized how dumb you were but hey its alright, cuz I’m a loser too yea yea, quit living a lie quit trying to fly your just goin to flunk you teenaged punk so what are you goin to do? cuz I’m a loser too but I’m feelin blue Since I have no clue where I’m goin next Goin No where I’m the only one who cares the same and ponders about the sum I know this will never change cuz I’m askin for some help but I’m by myself where there’s nothing, you can do chorus x2 I’m goin no where since nobody changed I’m goin no where since I am the same and no one knows where I am there’s no where to go and I can’t see where I am or where I’m coming from since I am goin no where and it sounds kinda dumb but you don’t care chorus x2 Slacker I’m a slacker don’t back me up sometimes I lack that patience to get though my day but I’m goin all the way no matter how hard it is I’m goin to try my hardest I don’t care what anyone else says cuz I’m doin my own thing -chorus- yea, yea, I’m a slacker maybe a loser too yea, yea I’m a slacker you can’t tell me what to do yea, yea I’m a slacker I’m too lazy and I’m not doin anything some people say, I’m wasting time but hey, I don’t care what you say It doesn’t matter to me I’m not afraid to admit that I’ll get nothing done and that’s a slacker to some -chorus - yea, yea, I’m a slacker x2 Don’t Wait love is hard but I know what it’s like to not make your move life goes by too fast you never know what is goin to happen and this could be your last chance don’t stall, or waste your time make the effort and try not to whine -chorus - this is for all of you that can’t decide or know what to do don’t take sides cuz’ love is a chance that might not last so ask them to that dance make your move real fast what the worse that can happen? that they will say no doesn’t matter, move on find another, that you can hold true love happens only once don’t let that time go by Grasp it, and ask the question and let the feelings fly chorus Hurt Before I heard someone say I wasn’t myself today It will happen anyway Can't control it alone I will sit afraid to commit I was hurt before and I'm a little sore my heart broken, it was tore when I speak I feel a little weak maybe I’m a freak Yeah, Yeah -chorus- I don’t know what I want and I can’t show that I want to be with you and I can’t decide what to do But I can’t be me and maybe you can see that I’m free but I’m afraid and I’ll delay then you will say that you wont wait around then I’ll hit the ground and I’ll feel down that I wasted time and then I’ll whine then I will never shine -chorus- Looking Around -chorus - I’m not talking I’m not standing I’m sitting here waiting for you Where are you? Where did you go? Where can I find you? cuz’ your not here yea, yea, yea x2 the love of my dreams gone away from me I broke her heart and she ran away I’m a jerk what can I say? -chorus - yea ,yea, yea x2 I wish I could fall in love again but I know that it will never happen Yeah, I’ll never find the one I’m too scared I don’t have a chance -chorus - yea, yea, yea x2 I’ve Felt you’ll never know what its like to get pushed down by your self and you’ll never see what its like to be me and being treated like this when heart is broken you can’t rest or fall asleep people don’t know me they still judge me chorus you’ll never see me around you and you’ll never know anything about me cuz you don’t take the time its always about you always takin away from my broken heart you’ll never know what its like since i’ve felt down every night and day its messed up my walk sometimes I can’t talk you think it’s funny but all I get is pain you’ll never see what’s on the inside cuz your lookin out and judgin me chorus x 2 Love At First Sight I know you won’t show up but, I will wait here, yet you don’t care I’m still waiting for your call, since I did fall I feel used and I’m a little confused I thought I was right, love at first sight now I know I was wrong, and I’m not that strong I don’t know why I want you and I gotta be with you all I needed was you I was wrong about you yet I still wanna be with you I won’t argue, since I don’t know you then why must I say good bye? I wanna get to know you, so I can show you I won’t lie, I’m not that bad of a guy or am I wasting my time?, just to hear you whine I guess it won’t work out, yet I’m left with doubt Stupid my head hurts and your heart broken wasting your time thinking about me I saw you again and the thoughts begin how I was stupid -chorus- I ran away from you and there nothing you can do cept for wait for me but time is running out I’m sorry, yea, yea for thinkin bout you my heart aches your tuff necks something tells me I was wrong and ill remember everything about you our first kiss our last kiss until I said goodbye -chorus- my eyes watered your tears gone thought about you again and the tears begin I was stupid you wont take me back what have I done? I dumped the one I loved yea, yea, yea I was wrong, I was stupid I’m crawling back for you but your not there cuz you fell in love with him chorus I Don’t Know No more questions No more answers cuz I’m running out leading me on to the wrong path waiting for an answer waiting to be told cuz’ -chorus- I don’t know where I am or where to go I just don’t know where are you? or what to do I quit asking I quit thinking Cuz I’m loosing my mind goin to the unknown where no one’s been I’m not moving I’m still waiting for the answer cuz’ -chorus- Option C On a cold and rainy night you know when I’m down all the times I can retrace when you were there to all the jokes we have that make us laugh to all the good times and for the ones yet to come a simple song I wont forget you don’t know how much you mean to me how you’ve changed me simple friends to the end some would say that friends will end but I know I’ll never forget you here’s a list, in case your in doubt you started my walk you kept me from myself you brighten up a cloudy day this might not mean much to others but it does to me and this song is just my thanks you were there Repeat: (2nd time through end with On a cold and rainy night) I Give Up chorus x2 I don’t want you around me anymore and maybe you’ll see that I’m tore sometimes it was hard to believe we were friends and this friendship has come to a end so just go away All these feelings I can’t control all the times you stabbed me in my back what have I done to you? one little fight is all it takes for you to lose it remembering all the times we had but you don’t care and you make me feel like I’m not here chorus x2 Now your acting all hard it’s funny cuz your not I still care for you even though your a jerk your not all that pride is holding you back your not goin to realize oh well it’s your loss chorus x2 why does it have to be like this? I don’t need this... I don’t want this... all this anger building up I’m fed up I’ve tried my hardest and you don’t care so I’m giving up giving up on you so.. chorus x2 Waste of Time welcome to my life where its boring all the time and you listen to me whine I’m a loser so shoot me what a freakin nightmare I live in my best friend cheating on her oh well what can you do? chorus x 2 where your a loser like me all the hott chicks don’t look at me the one in the corner thats me maybe your a loser like me repeat first verse (faster) Welcome to my life the same old rut ill keep my mouth shut the girls? don’t have any the life? don’t got one this really sucks I’m not good looking either who ate all the sheep? Chorus x2 repeat first verse (faster) hey look its your mom time to run away you stupid gullible person come here and make my day this song makes no sense that movie sucked oh well what can you do? chorus x2 repeat first verse (faster) Losers I’m in class no more notes to pass I look around sometimes up and down then I see her face and how bad lunch tasted her beautiful face it makes me wanna cry to bad she is with him its happen again and the thoughts begin Pre chorus (build up for chorus) I like a taken girl I have no chance I’m not goin to try she is outta my league Chorus the facts are true theres nothing to do since I’m a loser and not a chooser since I smells you can’t tell I don’t know take showers and your mom has the power to try and kill me but don’t you see? walking with my shoes untied I have no pride since I’m in a band try to be a fan watch us play and hear me say your mom a couple of times you just cant whine cuz your stuck here and shes standing there with her pretty hair pre chorus chorus Closing I’m a loser you may not believe so you can leave sorry my friend this is the end Your Mom I heard something really lame sometimes I feel I lost my brain this I hate this song something seems so wrong I made this up from a sliver cup and your mom is named tom what can you do? when you feel so blue all these problems with us always happens with trust can’t handle the pressure try not to crush her we all have simple lives so live a sweet life I heard someone say it wasn’t their day quit throwing a fit shut up and sit don’t mess with me I’ll set you free forget about yesterday so get outta my way I try not to tease but I try to please chorus then you’ll see everything about me try to rewind that tape of mine and be the one you are to some don’t change yourself for someone else don’t get wiped don’t get tripped chorus